Giver

I took a break from my "re-writing" for the entry before this one, to write on something that the LORD has taught me and shown me and my heart and that it was not in the right place.  God had showed me that my heart was selfish to want and daydream about a home selling business so much, especially when we did not need the money. 

Then I am back to re-writing again, and this entry below from several years ago is on the topic of how a wife is a gift from God and not being prideful about it.  I am going to write about how it ties with what God has shown me recently, the heart being selfish, and with the entry about not being prideful, and it will be short.  (Quality vs. Quantity!) 

When I was thinking about a home business A LOT recently, I would talk A LOT about it, too.  "Maybe this company.... or that one.."  I would talk to my husband A LOT.  He actually was suggesting giving, as for what I wrote down on the original entry below "A way that a wife can have a correct perspective is by focusing on being a giver." A book I want to read is One Thousand Gifts by Ann Voscamp.

        
Original entry:

          It is prideful for a wife to think that she when she is prudent is a gift from herself to her husband.   I have found that when I think that I am a gift, a gift from me not from God, I am relying on myself for my strength and energy, and that is not good.  But when I acknowledge that every good and perfect gift is from God, including myself when I am prudent, there is rest and peace for me, leaving what God’s Word says to be true and be only concerned with being pleasing to Him in every way by His power working in me.  
          A way that a wife can have a correct perspective is by focusing on being a giver.  A wife does not have to have a lot of money in order to be a giver.  There are lots of things every wife has that she can give that is not money.  A wife has lots of things in her possession, given to her by God that she can give to her husband, and they are time, love, care, peacefulness, diligence, work, and a safe place to rest.

About "Us," "We," and "Our"

The longer you live, the more you learn about life, and the longer you are married the more you learn about marriage, if open to learning. I'm grateful for the things the Lord had shown me recently through several sources all coming together for one good direction. I guess (well, it's not up to me to decide if it's true) that if "you trust in the Lord with your heart, he will direct your paths." That is a promise. So the longer I am married, the more I learn that marriage really is about "us," "we," and "our" - not those pronouns in the singular. I am just grateful for it and wanted to show honor to God through this and thankfulness to Him.

Elaborating on the "several sources" which were all coming together for one good direction, I say one thing that happened before I started realizing my heart was not where it was supposed to be was me keep thinking and daydreaming of owning a home-business selling something when we did not need the money.  Another thing, regarding not viewing marriage correctly, and realizing I have been rather selfish to think about these home businesses, is a recent facebook post I read, someone announcing a divorce process about to begin, speaking of their soon-to-be ex-husband that "It's about him, not us."  It convicted me that when I daydream about a home business when we do not need to money, it is really just about me, not "us."